Confusion-The most common word in everybody’s life.

Have you ever underwent through such a situation when things are not at all falling at its place right from job to one’s personal front.I have experienced it from the past one year and more but this 2009 has given me lots of pain so much so that I have become used to it.I always take decision in haste but going back to my home town was not the decision in haste. After lots of contemplation I moved back to my home as I wanted to start my own business. I did all the home working but things really did not work as I got an opportunity for Japan which was my long cherished dream(Howsoever I m not feeling that excited) and also I was taking longer time in managing the finance. Honestly speaking I was not that much lured with Japan opportunity because there was some sort of commitment from myself only. But due to the delay in finances,I have to opt for the new job with very indifferent attitude. May be because of my parent’s will or somewhere I was also terrified with the thought of living in Bhagalpur(Still the same or may be its detorriated,No A.C in bar when there was no power supply).
I even tried to discuss with my closest confidante but she also couldnot help me much leaving this decision to be taken by me.Again I got confused.I tried very hard to come onto some decision but days passed but I couldnot decide.I even talked to my ex-crush and her reply was also the same as rest of the other people. Finally I decided to move to Bangalaore,earn some money and then come back.I really don’t know whether this decision is right or wrong but this was probably the need of hour. What I want in life is to be successful and success”s meaning differs from person to personSo with tears in my eyes and heavy heart I would be leaving for Banagalore to fulfil my parents and family dreams. Lets see how much successful I can be in this venture.In this sojourn I miss my ex-girlfriend who stood always behind me but this time she is no more into my life. May be because of her absence I took such a long time to decide. Else God also wants me to grow up on my own that’s why she is no more in my life. People moves away from one’s life but they leave sweet memory and this memeory sometime’s become strength as well as weakness. I am still feeling weak. But I have to come out from this syndrome. So I can only bank upon God now. He will only guide me as I feel pretty weak and my confidence level has also gone down.
God –Please help me as I want to rise and move up in life.