Rebirth in December

Finally after a hiatus, I am back here with my randomness to be shared among all of you. I seriously missed my random writings but my tight schedule and lots of complications in life somehow didn't let me share my weird random thoughts over here. I seriously missed it albeit writing is not my bread and butter but deep within I am passionate and feel so intensely about this art. It gives me such a high that it can be termed as "cocaine" of my life. I just wish my girl does not read this piece of weird stuff otherwise she will advise me to remain with this "cocaine". Jealousy is at times very bad, whether it's against you or for you. But these all are the elements which make us a human being. Last six months I was so busy that I lost almost eleven kilograms and started looking like a grown up. You know when you are so passionate about something then you really don't care come what may. MY state was something akin to that but somehow it was taking a huge toll on my life which I did not realise. But that passion somehow ended abruptly. I was criticised from every quarter that made me feel so helpless. You tend to feel so weak from within. It was like a huge loss, a kind of demise of your very own relative. I cried, shoved and I did so many foolish things which I should not have done. But I could not stop myself because it was a matter of passion. "Excellence should surpass everything". That is my motto. It was during this time when I found my love who gives me solace, who is a firm wall, a confession box and so much more. So much I have missed her in those past months. Life plans its own chess game and tries to check you out every moment. That's how we become tragedy kings, pauper and nonetheless the Hero. I really do not know what I am. Just settling down slowly. What went away from me has come back again to me. During this course of time I have suffered some irrepairable loss which I am still trying to mend... do not know whether it will fall into my booty or not. Also the lateral effect which is still taking toll everyday. I need to come out of it because life is still giving me so much which I should have got little earlier but I really do not know the quantum of that little whether it was really so little. For that little such a great fuss was just an act of shedding off my duty or was it not too little. Even I have left this on god to decide. One thing is for sure that I am going to write more from now on. I have come with an expiry date on to this whole bunch of Jokers' Planet but who knows what's there in the Pandora's box. I could or could not make it. Between these two, life revolves and ends and we never ever comprehend it....Never ever. Those comprehensible factors get buried and those incomprehensible stuffs remain for the next generation for comprehension. That's how life goes on.