I am in love…God--------Please help me.

I have fallen in love with you. Initially I disliked you like anything (not actually hated you but scared of losing you) but after I came close to you(not physically) I developed an enigmatic attraction towards you. I kept this in my heart for almost more then three years but I am sorry to say that I cannot conceal more and Please don’t tell me to hide it from this world. Let me speak about it what I felt for you all throughout the years. I was restless and carefree person before I met you but you somehow gave a meaning to my life. How can I forget those days when I was struggling with my own destiny. It was something akin to make or break scenario for my life but it was your assurance which made me walk to through those rough phases and today I am proudly confessing it before everybody. Please donot feel embarrassed if you still think that I am not up to your standard. You know I am still trying to level that difference sincerely and someday I will definitely come up to your expectation.
Your eyes are so esoteric that it says everything ….(Ican find something for me if not everything) . I am not sure whether you think that way but it is my strong believe. I am not joking nor I am exaggerating your qualities and please donot think that I am making fun of yours.I always for you like this only for more than three years. I was bowled to see your simplicity, the way you carry yourself, the way you convey your message to other people(but you are so vulnerable..I am really worried about this) is impeccable and unmatched. I really donot know whether I deserve you or not but whatever I felt for you in these years I am just writing . Please donot mind. You cannot love me but you can never stop me to think all this. This is what I felt but you know my love..If you say that its useless to think about me then I would definitely try to do so albeit you cannot stop me to think that way.
I really donot know if you love me but whenever you’d think about me then you would find yourself motionless and at that time I would be acting as a mirror.I have fallen for you for many things right from your discipline,commitment,attitude and so many more. You are the only one who can save me from everything. But if you turn away from me now then I really donot have decided anything for life. I cannot tell where I would go. I will be or wont be without you…………….This also I havenot decided because I think I am not like that you can take me for granted which you are trying to do these days. So Please be in my favor. Need I repeat it everytime. Donot you know sanctity of my love. I have waited for you almost more than three years and donot you think that its enough for anybody. Donot you think that every bloody action has its own bloody limit. Cannot you come in my life. Please tell me. I love you. I tell you that I cannot wait more now. Believe me.