When the U.S and Japanese economy is reeling deep under the Recession hovering below -8% of G.D.P there is a huge cacaphony among the common Janta and I am no different.I have been badly affected by it.Firstly my one of the most important dream of going to Japan came crashing and my present job have almost slipped away from my hand.I really cannot express it in writing.Its a curse which I can only feel and cannot describe or express. But the situation is quite diffrent from before. I am not at all anxious of finding a new one. It seems that God have put some anasthesia over my anxiety and made it numb as he couldnot justify some of my questions(Previous blog).
I have 20 more days to pass with my present company but I am totally oblivion of my future. what would I do after 2oth day. Really God have done something over me this time. So these days I work ,trying to learn the difficult stuffs which I always escaped from and getting better.But one thing I detest most is the people around me. They are more interested to poke their nose in other's business. I feel that they get some pleasure akin to having sex with a virgin(boy/girl)..Its so suffocating. Honestly I dont wish to work. People ask me whether I found some new job and when I negate then they would ask that what next.My reply to them that I would change my passion into proffession.After that no body asks me anything probably because they are not capable to undersatnd what I mean. I feel releived after that.But honestly I also dont know where I would be heading after 20 days.
On some pretentious excuses I have taken a week off from my office and I am reading a nice novel named"The Kite Runner"..Its such a nice one that I could relate with it sometimes..Its right that everybody is a story teller. After finishing it almost I felt that I should re-unite with some one very special. But every thing has changed quite a lot and I can only think of it. Sometmes in life we have to live whole life with bitter truth and we cannot help it.This is what life is.Loss on every front,sweet illusion every where,big fake promises....thats what life is probably..I think that I got so any answers from all quarters that I dont feel any urge about my calmness as how it happend but it is the truth and it cannot be belied.
Still I am living my life on the little hope on my own bloddy terms.May be I am wrong or 100% right , you will get to know sooner or later.
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